.: March 2011

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I don't know it will become like this .

Assalamualaikum ,

27 Mac 2011 . At first , I don't want to talk about this . But , I changed my mind . Okaay , actually , 27 haribulan tu ada Karnival Jom Masuk U . Karnival tu berlangsung dua hari , 26 dan 27 haribulan . Mula mula nak pergi dah hari Sabtu tu , but something happen so my friend and I can't make it that day . We decided to go on the next day . Macam macam pulak yang jadi hari Ahad tu . Pergi berdua , balik berempat . Karnival tu buat dekat Dataran Ipoh so dekat aje lahh dengan Ipoh Parade . Aku sampai sana dalam pukul 10 lebih macam tu lahh *sorry tak tengok jam pun . Pusing punya pusing sampai tak larat , kitorang duduk kejap dekat luar sebelum decide nak pergi Ipoh Parade . Waktu duduk tu , nampak someone , lama jugak lah tak jumpa . Nak panggil dia but dia tengah sembang dengan kawan dia waktu tu . Lepas tu , nampak pulak lagi sorang . Lama jugak tak jumpa . Sebab dia jugak lahh , aku buang masa aku dengan kawan kawan aku . I'm sorry , friends :(

Jalan jalan pergi kedai jap , jumpa someone tadi tu . Muhammad Ajwad nama beliau :) Okaay , handsome as always :) Teringat pulak waktu sekolah dulu . Jarang sangat sembang . Because he's a shy one ;) Tapi itu dulu lahh . Sekarang tidakk . He's a gentlemen . Haa enough from praising him . Continue with the story . Ingat kan nak jumpa kawan lagi sorang . But dia pemalu terlebih pulak . Yang aku cakap sebab dia aku buang masa tu . Let's call him A . Senang cerita . Lepak bawah pokok kejap dengan kawan aku , Syafiqah . Then Ajwad datang . Sembang punya sembang , we make up our mind and go to Parade . Dah lah panas waktu tu . Nak tunggu A laagi buat aku panas . Thanks Ajwad and Iqa , you guys really make my day

Lama dah tak lepak macam tu . Gelak tak ingat . HEE

Then , without telling me , si A sampai foodcourt , tempat kitorang lepak . Dia lambai je , lambai , lambai dan lambai . Lepas tu senyum . At first , aku tak kisah sangat . Sebab sikap pemalu dia . Apa salahnya kalau dia datang greet aku face to face ? Sebelum ni okay je ? Hari tu pulak malu terlebih ? Yeahh , he makes me dissapointed with him . Jalan nak cari makan , jumpa Najwa dengan Rosliana . Jalan sekali . Macam macam kitorang sembang . Then we decided to go to MarryBrown , where A was ate . Beberapa hari sebelum tu , dia yang cakap nak jumpa aku sangat . But then , takat lambai je . Text punya text , cakap dah balik . He treat me like a fool . Aku tak pernah tunggu orang macam ni . Pertama kali orang layan aku macam ni . Aku marah sangat dengan diaaa . Oh my , I don't know how I supposed to act .

He text me the next day and keep saying his sorry . I hate that word ! 'Sorry' might heal the wound but it'll always leave a scar . To A : Buat lahh apa awak nak buat lepas ni . Okaay ?

To Muhammad Ajwad : Thanks for being 'so mean' and gentle that day . You never fail from makes me laugh , boy :) I'm so sorry for wasting your time . Actually , ckin tak sangka dapat jumpa Ajwad hari tuh :) Kebetulan pulak baju kita sama . ahhahaha :D Thank you , again

To Syafiqah , Najwa and Rosliana : I'll not forget that day . I miss you guys so much ! Nanti keluar lagi okaay ?

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Persoalan sudah terjawab .

Assalamualaikum ,

Semalaman tak boleh tidur , sibuk fikir apa keputusan aku . Apa benda yang aku nak bawa balik tunjuk dekat Mama dan Ayah aku . Aku takut , takut akan kecewakan mereka . Nervous tak payah cakap lahhh . Sampai je sekolah semalam , macam macam muka aku jumpa . Muka nak nangis lahh , muka cuak lahh . Aku tengok orang nangis aku jadi takut . Tapi , sebelum keluar rumah , aku dah janji pada diri aku sendiri , yang aku akan redha dan terima dengan sebaiknya keputusan aku tu . Ayah pulak yang terlebih nervous dari aku . Actually , he supposed to accompany me to take my result but unfortunate he has important work that day . Kalau tak ambil cuti daaaaah .

Cikgu kelas aku turun paling lambat sekali . Orang lain semua dah dapat result dah . Laaaagi cuak ! "Relax Ckin , chill . It's gonna be okaaay . You've try your best ." fuuuu =_=" Aku dengan cuak tak terkatanya ni , kumpul segala kudrat ambil tempat belakang kawan aku . Okaaay , it's my turn now . Dua kali cikgu cari kertas tak jumpa . Bila dah jumpa tu dia tutup dulu . Dia cek nama aku dalam senarai "Hutang Tak Dilangsai" ahhahaha :D I'm a good girl okaay , so tak ada hutang . Cleaaaaaan :D Lepas aku sign borang berhenti sekolah , cikgu hulurkan result aku . Sekali pandang , 3A . Dua kali pandang , 4A rupanya . Alhamdulillah , syukur ke hadrat Ilahi . Terima kasih ya Allah . Semua persoalan sudah terjawab . Aku terus call ayah . Macam dia tanya tapi aku tak tahu perasaan dia , gembira atau sedih . Same goes to my Mom . I'm sorry Parents if you guys expect more from me . It's my fault also because didn't try as hard as I can . It doesn't mean I didn't try my best , I do try . And , an applause to myself . "You really did a good job sayang . I'm proud of you , Nurul Assyiqin ."

4A , 2B , 1C , 2D . Dua kali aku mimpi aku dapat 6A , but aku cuma dapat 4A je . keke~ Setakat ni , aku tak ada bising sangat sebab untuk aku ambil jurusan yang aku suka , lepas . I'm about to take Law course . *whoot whoot* My aunt ask me to be a Doctor . Same goes to my parents but I don't know . I really don't know . Borang UPU dah isi . Course pilihan pun aku pilih dua tu je , Sains dan Undang-undang . Selain dari tu , aku tak pandang dahhh . Lepas call Parents tuh , terus call Abang aku . He promise me to buy a phone kalau dapat 5A . Janji Mam pun sama jugak , tapi apakan daya , dapat 4A jeeee :D Call je dia tak sempat nak cakap apa dahh , terus dia serbu tanya dapat berapa . Aku cakap lahh aku dapat 4A je . Dia tanya ada gagal tak ? Yang lain dapat apa ? No Fail okaaaaay . Dia cakap haa okaay laa tuh . HEE . Sounds satisfied je . Actually aku nak tanya ada hadiah ke tidak but tak jadi lahh . Buat malu aku je . ahahahha :D Nak tahu ada hadiah ke tidak , tunggu 9 April ni . Jumpa dia dekat Shah Alam . Mintak mintak lah ada . ehhehhe ^^,

Okaay , berduyun SMS masuk hari tuh . Call lah , apelah , macam macam . Thank you for all your concern yeahh :) I want to thank my Family , fellow Friends and greatest Teacher for all your guidance and concern . Thank you very much . Thank you , thank you and thank you ! :)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Waiting For You - Yesung (Super Junior)

Translation

Words that I couldn’t tell you
keep flashing when I close my eyes
The love of mine that I hold back into memories
comes to my mind as you
When I had you by my side and wandered around
I’m regretting those days
Don’t you hear my true heart?
Waiting for you
Till the end of the world
Waiting for you
Till that moment when fate stops us
Now I can give you everything
But can’t you come closer to me?
My precious person
Even though I erase our memories together
Like nothing ever happened
Even though I say I don’t know, my heart
recognizes you first
The time I spent with you
Waiting for only you
My last love is just you
Waiting for you
Till the end of the world
Waiting for you
Till that moment when fate stops us
Now I can give you everything
But can’t you come closer to me?
My precious person
This love I can’t forget alone, I can’t exchange alone
Words I say by myself linger where you used to be
That like your hands I couldn’t take when you were by my side
I won’t ever let you go again
As my longing to see you has grown too much
Though the steps toward you are getting slow
I will love you just like the first time we met
The love without regret in my heart that once halted
*credit to Lyrics @ gasazip

I Don't Know ,

Please , don't blame it on me . Heart , why ? I thought it's over but why it's start again ? You make me miss him so much . You make me cry so badly because of him . Why ? Why ? Why ? Mind , can you please throw him away ? You make me miss him even more . I can't stand it . I can't .

I want to hate myself because I'm not strong . I want to but I know I'm trying hard . It's all your fault Z . It's all yours ! I want to hate you but it will only make me love you even more . I wish you know my heart

My Only One - BoA

This song makes me cry so badly . Damn !

Lyrics Translation

One year like a day, like time’s memory
I don’t see it as love, it hurts more
Even if it returns as regret, remains in my heart
I loved with that heart the same heart

My heart speaks, what about my heart?
One step, two steps, should’ve slowly walked
Under the name of love, come to me
Inside my heart you leaned on me, you were laughing

*Stay in my heart, love stay in my heart
As much as it hurt me, my strangled tears too
Now I’ll leave you in my heart forever
Whenever in my heart, there will be one person

Though the thought came, I won’t ask
Because my heart that loved isn’t a lie
I’ll bury you in my memories and place it in my heart
I loved with that heart the same heart

Between my two closed eyes, I hear your breath
All day, that look you stared me with
Even I didn’t know my heart became dirty
A wonderful memory stays

*Repeat

I’ll say that I still love
Like a fool, the love in my heart that passed

**The times I spent with you, your wonderful promises
Do you remember them, just how much we placed our love
I frequently laugh because of that love, my heart
I love you again, in my heart there will be one person

I cry so badly . I miss you . I wish you miss me , even for once . I wish you have thought about me even once . You don't have any idea how much I miss you now . I don't know why , I really don't know why